Astral.. the begining

Being a little weird in this world is no good for anyone. Astral knew that feeling and often thought of death. It seemed to her the only escape of the cruel world. She was "Surrounded by idiots" as she always though. Feeling alone and depressed was a part of her every day routine but why? She wondered why she was always the one that got hurt. No matter how hard she tried to be good, she was always considered the bad. She used to care a lot, but why? Was there anybody who would care about her if they didn't need her?
Asking herself all those questions, Astral was lying in her bed and staring at the ceiling. In her head there were millions of thoughts. The past one year had been full of adventures, love, pain, disappointments and ignorance. She had been strong and naive for far too long. "I;m alone here", she thought. "Now I can let it all out!"
And that was it...the tears were falling down Astral's face. She felt a sudden relief. Everything she was thinking about was there...in front of her eyes all of her memories pictured.
She saw the boy who was playing around with her feelings, and she felt stupid. She realized what a naive little girl she used to be. She loved helping people, but they took advantage of her kindness. "Why am I getting so upset?" - she murmured to herself. And than just like a thunder it struck her: she was in love with that guy, she wanted him more than anything else, but it seemed he didn't feel the same.
In her memory she kept all of the beautiful memories they had together: the beautiful night on her 17th birthday, all the kind words he said to her, the day in the forest on March 3rd, the gentle kisses and his hand holding hers tight "Where did this all go? What had I done to end it? Was it my fault?" Those were the questions running through her head.  Although she wished she hadn't thought of the strange way he acted sometimes, Astral did remembered all of the times he'd been acting rudely. She also pictured him with all the women he used to date, and the ones he only had sex with. Astral felt broken...again scattered into little pieces, her heart was trying to endure the pain. Was it working? She could only imagine what it would be like to feel free from this emotions.
Caleb was the name of the wanted-so-badly boy. There was something different in his smile, his eyes and his behavior that made Astral fall for him every single time she meets him. They had never gone out by themselves, they had only met by chance few times.
Caleb usual excuse was something that Astral had already knew by heart. He used to say that she was an amazing young lady, with a bright future in front of her, "but was there a future for her without him being in it.", she wondered.
Astral looked around her room...there was no sigh of his presence but she felt it. Caleb was in her mind, refusing to go away. No matter how hard she tried those memories kept popping up in her head all day long.
Finally, she decided to go out and to take a long walk around the town. Although her hometown wasn't big, Astral loved long walks while listening to music. They helped her think and make the best decisions.

Astral was way too different from the others her age. She loved spending hours listening to music, walking in the park and enjoying the company of the trees and animals in the forest. She used to get angry with people's attitude towards the nature but some days now the only thing she cared about was herself.
She used to be very thoughtful and careful with everyone's feeling. But sooner she found out that no one was as thoughtful and caring with hers. So she concluded that this was the end of her naive being.